Yes, this is the last post I’ve published and now’s it’s been over a year since I’ve shared anything.

"Focus is an illusion & creativity thrives in the untamed chaos."

• Unknown

I saved this quote through a Shortcut I set up to make quick and easy notes that could be saved to my "Vault" in Obsidian.

The issue herein lies in that I didn’t save the source of the quote.

It could have been from a podcast, youtube video, hell, I could have strung these words together.

Though, I’m not sure I’ve ever been so eloquent.

I've done my best to try and find the source, if someone does, please share so I can properly credit.

Point is - I’m unfocused a majority of the time, mostly due to the crippling ADHD and as I re-examine this quote, I wonder if I should embrace the chaos instead of resist it.

What is Unfocused Focus about? I'm literally working through that question below. 😅

The idea is that this site is a collection of writings not dedicated to anything in particular, but a variety of topics I’m interested in- unfocused but focused?

A place to share some stories on an array of interests and showcase different projects from my unfocused mind in a semi-focused way.

Through a medium of musings on embracing that focused creative endeavors is an illusion for many ADHD people, myself included especially.

I find myself at odds with any creative endeavors, ideas, or goals I set out for myself.

It’s all a bit depressing, but I imagine I’m not the only one who feels as such.

It feels as though I have a vast amount of thoughts, ideas, and no organized way to produce, let alone share, that feels fair to anyones time, including myself.

Even the idea of choosing a place to focus in on the inter-webs is quite daunting.

There’s pros and cons to everything, I remind myself, though I envy the people who are comfortable with their creative endeavors enough to publish away without succumbing to self-doubt.

Years ago, I had this podcast, it was my first real creative endeavor.
I had no qualms of sharing that work at all. I wish I could be that version of myself so easily and carefree.

This post feels a bit embarrassing as it isn’t drenched with confidence, nor the style of writing I find my most fulfillment in.

But considering I've always wanted to share thoughts online and not sharing has gotten me nowhere, I will go ahead and publish this.

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• Frederick